This morning I saw my Doctor. I was very happy because all of my results were astoundingly ok. I did ask him why I had a numb feeling down my left side. He explained to me that it could be from extreme stress or psychological.
I told my doctor that my pain was actually quit huge. The pain that I suffered when my mother left me when I was only 18 months old Please let’s not forget the pain I felt when my beloved grandmother died, and last year I had to deal with another devesatating situation.
To be honest, I haven’t felt right since a senior social worker in Havant told me that I got what I deserved. When I complained to her that the young social worker had used a third party report in her section 37 report to justify her statments, the response was nil.
I explained in my complaint that the support worker Lorrain Riggs had lied and said that other grandparents told her that I had sent the children to school dirty, filthy and stinky. Which I hadn’t and never would.
The simple fact that Lorrain Riggs had only attended one grandparents meeting and spent the whole time talking with me as she didn’t know any of the other grandparents. I was so upset over the lies that Lorrain Riggs had told that I cried on and off for six months. The lies from Lorrain Riggs report and the Jasmine Grimshaw report where so traumatic that these nsty comments triggered off the trauma that I had suffered as a child and tennager.
I thought I did not deserve my mother abandoning me. I didn’t deserve my grandfather abusing me. I certainly didn’t deserve my teachers canning me over supposedly bad behaviour. Those evil rapists, and horrible foster father biting my face left long term scars, not only on my body but my mind as well.
The pain isn’t so raw now but I find it difficult to get over what Jasmine Grimshaw had said to me. I am a Christian and so i have forgiven her.
I don’t dislike social workers but we do need honest kind social workers. I am aware that their jobs are very difficult, but when you are feeling down in your life, it is the kindnest that you need most.
I had a great Social Worker who came to my house from when I was 4 years old to about 15 years old. Mr Sonny War was indeed a good social