sea view cottage
dead wood
july 1961 D
Dear Queenie
it will be a big day for me very soon I will be 5 years old and muma told me that I will be a big girl and I will go to school. I an very excited going to school to at least I will be out of poppes way . he is so spitful to me he picks on me for nothing he tells me every day that he hates me, he never praises me but he does praise my cousins, it makes me feel so bad about myself, muma is aways telling me how pretty I am, she brushes my hair and curls it I love her so much. I get very frighted, I keep thinking that she will die and there won’t be anyone to look after me.
when I grow up I am going to get a job and buy her the best dress in the world. My life don’t make much sense, popa calls me a bastard child and he is always saying that he hates me , muma is always praising me and saying that I am good looking and I am tall for my age She always looks at me with a beaming big smile on her face it makes me feel so happy, it also takes the pain away of popa saying that he hates me. I wish that my mum would come back and get me. muma says that popa is a wicked man but he is always saying things from the bible, he says his prayers every night he tells me to say my prayers before I go to bed.I am so confuse because popa is always saying good things from the bible but he is very spitful to me. when i say my prayers tonight I ask god to let popa love me. love from Dorthy xxx