Dear Queenie,
hope you are ok,I am not in a good place at the moment. I am sure there are demons out there trying to get me .I have so much bad luck, no sooner do I sort myself out, something worse happens. Even the dog seems to be taken over by a dark force. she is still loving to me but she is always so cross with people walking past the window. I don’t know what to do or say right now. I am trapped like a caged animal. I just want to roll up into a ball and sleep for ever. I don’t want to die, because if I died I wouldn’t be able to dream and sometimes that is all I can do. I haven’t seen my grandchildren for almost 6 weeks, I suppose I became upset when they reduced our family time. I am only human, and couldn’t understand why they treated me different to Robert .The woman supervising family time lied about me, she said I was reading the boys text messages. I didn’t scroll down their phones we were all mucking about taking photos . Strange thing is there was something about Lisa the contact support worker. I couldn’t put my finger on it , I now know the woman is a compulsive liar. She is from Bristol so she is bound to have hang ups about none Europeans , I am not saying everyone from large ethnic areas are institutionalized racist you can not rule it out. I have sent several letters to children’s services asking for her to be investigated, they have not responded . I feel that children’s services are dragging their feet ,they don’t care about me why should they . A very serious allegation has been made against me there are no more tears left, I will get through it. I have had a rough time all my life. I am tired I am done in. I am a heap on the floor but I will get up because that is what I have always done. Get up and fight my demons , I will always win . from Dorothy.