Today my body feels like it is being weighed down,
By ropes and chains,
I can’t see where I am.
I don’t know where I am.
Nothing matters to me.
My mind is dead,
I dont feel any emotions at all.
I can’t even think,
I don’t care if a whole weeks washing up is stacked in the sink.
I am falling, falling to the floor,
I can’t take any more.
I am reduced to a heap on the floor.
I feel that there isn’t any one out there for me.
I must get up, I so want to get up.
It is those triggers they have a hold on me today,
I want to get up, I must get up, I can hear the door bell ,
I can hear,
a childs voice,
Calling ” Are you in nanny are you well” ?
I am fine now, I will feel better tomorrow.
And that is what keeps me going .
There is always tomorrow.