I wouldn’t say that I suffer from depression, I am affected by triggers. Seeing toddlers and school-age children makes me sad. I think back to when I was a small child growing up on St Helena. I don’t think that I ever did overcome the trauma of my mother leaving me. At just eighteen months old I was far too young to remember her face nevertheless, I pined for her. I have triggers which take over my life at times, seeing todlers and small children overwhelms me. I think how small I was and not to have my mum with me.I look at my 7 year old granddaughter giggling and sitting on her mums lap, at that age I was physically and mentally abused by my grandfather. I was abused at school, my teachers would hit me so hard for being late. There were two young men who thought that it was ok to knock me over and drag me by my legs through the woods .I screamed as loud as I could but they ignored my screaming. I was terrified of what they did to me, I am still having the most dreadful nightmares . I have this reoccurring dream that I am walking along a footpath and a large crocodile jumps up and grabs me and drags me through the woods. The two men were arrested but they were released because it had happened so long ago. Sometimes the triggers are so bad that I feel that I can’t take any more. It didn’t help when Jasmine Grimsure the head social worker at Havant children’s services told me that I got what I deserved when I complained to her that I had been treated badly by Jenny Powel . Jenny had written a section 37 report for the court regarding a residency order. The judge said that she was far too critical of me, I was devastated it had led to me having a mental breakdown. I am not at all anti-social workers I had a social worker all through my childhood. Moving house and my husband walking out after thirty-seven years of marriage contributed to me becoming ill yet again. I didn’t miss him too much it was the inner pain that had played havoc with my well being. I have come to terms with him leaving but I can’t get my head around how hateful nasty and spiteful he is to me. I met Anthony a year ago he is kind, understanding and caring I wish that we had met when we were younger. I am angry that I have wasted thirty -seven years of my life on someone who is disrespectful to me. My estranged husband rang me last night to see if I had sold the house, he told me that he has a new woman in his life. I hope that he treats her better than he treated me. No woman likes to be dumped. I hope that she isn’t younger than me, I can’t see anyone putting up with him like I did but there are a lot of desperate women out there after all. I don’t wish him good fortune because he won’t find luck down a cesspit.
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