Do you ever think of me, mum,?
I think of you quite alot,
I am the child that you forgot,
I thought of you yesterday and today,
In fact, I think about you every day
I saw a photo of you on facebook,
Your arms wrapped around your grandchildren,
you properly did it to taunt me,
Your love for them was plain to see.
Do you eve feel any guilt for leaving me,?
I didn’t have a mother,
I missed you so much,
That special loving mother’s touch
I grieved for you even though you weren’t dead,
The pain of not having a mother was unbearable,
And yes mother you have fucked up my head.
Am I unreasonable in feeling terrible seeing my mother on facebook with her arms wrapped around her granddaughters? Her grandchildren are indeed beautiful but this is the woman who left me when I was a baby. I went through hell as a child, she knew that her father was a violent sadist brute. He thought that it was ok to beat her mother and siblings. Rumore has iIt your older sister died age 13cyears old after a violent beating from him. He destroyed my childhood too, there are times I wished that he had killed me too. My childhood consists of being repeatedly raped, physical and mental abuse. and not having a mother. It hasn’t helped to see you with your grandchildren knowing you don’t care about me. I have been through hell because you weren’t there for me. I am not at all jealous of the relationship you have with your grandchildren but don’t turn your back on me. I ask if I could come to see you, you said you would think about it. Wrapped your arms around your grandaughter but don’t forget you have children and grandchildren you have never seen.