Yesterday I went to London, I felt so awful my head , neck, arm and hand was hurting so much. I was glad to get home and collapse on my sofa. I have so much upheaval in my life at the moment but nothing matters to me as much as my health. I would give anything to feel well again, saying that ones health is everything is so true. I have a persistent uncomfortable tightness in my head. I also like to think that I am a persistent person. I so want to get well, even if I don’t recover completely, I will be grateful just to have a few pain free days. I know I must accept that I am not getting any younger. I am not as quick as I once was, but I tell myself I have always been a laid back person. After a night of bad dreams I am disoriented in the morning, I always dream that someone is chasing me and holding me down. I know that psychiatrist tell us to live for the moment but I don’t have any control over what I dream about. My dreams are some what horrendous to say the least. I have this recurring dream I am around 10 years old I am walking along a footpath near my house all of a sudden a huge crocodile jumps up and drags my through a dense woods. I scream as loud as my lungs allows me to , there weren’t any crocodile on St Helena but there were certainly rapists. I am no longer governed by bullies and abusers. I have hope and, with that, a deep rooted desire to change what is not right. I love writing I know that if I don’t like the ending I can change it to make me feel better. I always tell the truth I dare not lie I have a terrible memory. My grandmother raised me to always do the right thing. I didn’t like some of the journeys I took, I sometimes got it wrong. I have always had the greatest respect for myself, I know the importance of self love, and yes I love myself how else would I be able to give love. by Dorothy Maude . com.
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