Trust means a lot to me. And when people betray me I tend to take it badly. Someone once told me that I was far too sensitive. She was raised by both parents in a stable home environment. So how could she judge me.? However, she was an honest person that I trusted very much. I shouldn’t really trust anyone, because most people have let me down in the end. First, My mother. When I ask if I could come to visit her, she said she would have to think about it. She had 23 years to think about it. Secondly, my beloved grandmother, who wrote to my mother saying that I was lazy this was unfair as she didn’t know the truth why I didn’t want to collect firewood anymore. There were two young men who thought that it was ok to knock me over and literally drag me through the woods. I had never heard the word rape, it was never used when I was a child. I had a good idea where babies came from, so I would kneel by my bed each night and put my trust in God, that I didn’t get pregnant. I thank god I didn’t have a baby before I left school. My auntie betrayed me because she should have been helping my grandmother to care for me. Instead, she fuelled my grandfathers’ hatred towards me and made the situation worse. She was someone I should have trusted. Foster parents who I had trusted turned out to be anything but trustworthy I still have nightmares of waking up in their house. And to top, it all finding a so call boyfriend having an incestuous relationship with his sister who had special needs. I shouldn’t really trust men after that as it still traumatizes me. Robert betrayed me after taking 37 years of my life, I have forgiven him as it makes me feel better. My grandchildren have been encouraged to turn their backs on me. Family time with my grandchildren was supervised by Lisa Brennan a support worker for the Isle Of Wight children’s services. Ms Brennan appeared to be friendly and supportive but there was something about her that didn’t feel right. The boys and I Would kiss goodbye and blow kisses as my train pulled out of the station. It was always sad to leave them as it would be 2 weeks before I would see them again. I always felt a wave of relief when I left Lisa Brennan, it felt like a dark cloud had lifted, or having a nice pair of shoes that left huge blisters on your feet. Ms Brennan claims she saw me touched my grandchildren inappropriately, she had to dive in and remove my hand, surely I would have known if she had touched my hand. I trusted both Lisa Brennan, and the foster carer yet he also thinks it’s ok to teach my grandchildren to disrespect me. They have put me through hell, mental abuse is as bad a physical abuse. In my opinion, Ms Brennan should not be allowed to work with vulnerable families. Someone from my church told Anthony that she was fed up with me winghing about my grandchildren, I foolishly thought that she was a good Christian I could trust to listen and be there for me. I don’t think she likes me, so I will stay away from her as I don’t need people like her in my life.I don’t want to be cynical and say I will never trust anyone again. I will need to choose wisely.by Dorothy Maude.
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